How I didn't miss the smell of the river..

The Niagara River/gorge smells TERRIBLE!! Makes me wanna puke every time I drive down there

Already it looks like this place is gonna blow the Comfort Inn away with weirdness.

First of all my schedule for next week is as follows;
OFF - Friday, Saturday
Work - Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday 9 - ?
OFF - Thursday, Friday
Work - Saturday 10 - 8

WTF is that?!?! 9 - ? So I could be there for like 10 hours a day just like my lovely Saturday shift. <- I thank Chad for that.. who is soo insane.

I got to work with Chad pretty much all night tonight, and I'm pretty sure he does more crack then normal people. Haha

First, when I told him about my tonsil surgery on AUGUST 17, he proceed to tell me that he knew someone that died from that.. not from the tonsils themselves, but because when the put the breathing tube down their throat they nicked the carotid artery and it was 15 minutes before they noticed... and the guy bled to death. So naturally I started freaking out... and he was like sweetie, I'm only kidding!
**THAT'S NOT SOMETHING YOU KID ABOUT!! ESPECIALLY NOT WITH ME!! I'M SCARED ENOUGH AS IT IS!!**

Then when I was on the phone with the crazzy lady, she was talking to her husband completely ignoring me, while I was trying to finish her reservation. So I was like Oh my god what the hell is this woman doing?! Chad told me that she was probably giving a blow job [well.. he made the whole "BJ hand gesture"]

Let's see, what else..

Ohh, he was telling me how is lips are really dry, cuz of this medication and he's going through chap stick like whoa. And I was like "At least you're not one of the people who put Vaseline on their lips." And as he was walking away he was like "Oh yeah I love Vaseline... I love to put it on and then suck...." I was like um, you're married.. are you sure you wanna finish that my dear. It was such an INSANE night with Mr. Chad *Crrrrrrrrrrrackhead*

But now I'm going to sleep, cuz I'm effing tired!
Candace, I'm writing these for you, you know! [Make sure you read the previous one too!] And I still haven't gotten my letter!

Lates
-Ash

- I really need you in my life no matter what I have to do, I’ll wait for you -

My First Day; Candace pour vous :)

Haha, a little demanding are we??
No, I haven't gotten your letter yet, and I'm getting a little impatient :p but it seems like it took you forever to get my letter, so I'm expecting it to come like next month. Which is insane, cuz we're not really THAT far away.

Grr, I have to leave soon.. so this is going to be quick..
The first day was alright. It's pretty ghetto there though haha, the computer system they use to keep track of the guests is soo old!!! It's like back in the day when computers first came out, with like the orange letters and nothing else. Yeah, it's definitely something you would expect in Fort Erie... only BIG SURPRISE even F.E is more technologically advanced. Oh, they also don't have fun little key cards... they just have old school keys to get into the rooms.

It's going to take a lot of getting used to; the damn old crap, plus the getting up early.
My cat was pissed at me when I left him alone all day, he used to me sleeping with him haha but when I came home after my first day, my room was ripped apart haha. He had a whole shelf cleaned off, and everything was off my bed and on the floor.

Everyone is really nice there though, and they have some of the COOLEST room ever!! They have a "rock room" the jacuzzi is made out of giant rocks and such. There's also an African themed room, and an Oriental room - tres beau.

Oh and there was this crazy lady that checked in and her credit card was declined.. and she ended up calling her credit card company to find out what was going on. We 'overheard' her.. and her credit people said they had a hold on it cuz she was reported missing by her family, and she needed to contact the police.
She was from Toronto.. and when she checked in, she insisted that no one contact her family.
WAAAAAAAACKO!!!!

But yeah, I think that's mostly everything.. and I have to go finish getting ready for work. I'm sure I'll add more later..

I missssss you!!!! Come home!! Oh and how's your foot?? "Leper Candia" haha
Oh, and I almost forgot... I don't know if you read that crap I left on that crap Facebook site... but I bought you something :) and it arrived in the mail yesterday [or maybe the day before]

*edit* 7:20pm
Another day down.. I got to work with Chad today... he's to cute haha. He told me that since I work with him pretty much all night tomorrow that I'm gonna be in trouble.. he's gonna make me work extra hard. He also decided that he was gonna call me "Squeek" because I have the cutest voice ever, and I sound like a mouse. :s
Also, that crazy lady that I wrote about earlier.. she was Bi-Polar! Her brother came down from the T-Dot today, to bring her home.

Byes!
-Ash

- Gotta let you know! I ain't gonna give up till you're mine -

Can't sleep [Clown will eat me]

Grrr, why can't I sleep

I start my new jobby tomorrow, at 10am. I'm used to just going to bed around that time, this is gonna be tough!
I really hope these jerks are nice to me... other wise, I may have another hotel in which I feel the need to burn down haha.

I went to see Pirates tonight [well.. last night] and I gotta say, I was disappointed...
It was so not worth all the hype, it was to long, and at times extremely pointless and laaaaaaaaaame! Like the whole fight scene/marriage proposal... so unnecessary, and really, like that would EVER happen. WoW, I'd make the worst movie critic, nothing pleases me.
I still say that the first one, was by far the best.

However, other then that small movie fiasco.. twas a good night :) complete with a dinner at Pizza Hut that was full of hilarity.
ASH: "Ben, don't blow bubbles in your pop.. it will go flat! Do you like flat pop?!"
BEN: "Almost as much as I like flat chicks!" [he says this as the waiter walks over..]

Blah, perhaps I shall go try to sleep somemore, I still have to go shopping later today for stupid dress shoes, and dres shirts *grrr* I hate this unifrom crap already! Haha

*Mwah*
-Ash

I'm Free!

I am officially no longer a Comfort Inn F.E. employee!! *Oh how sweeet it is*

Dear; Comfort Inn
I'd say I'm gonna miss you, but that would be a terrible lie! The only one I'm gonna miss, is 'Mr. Nova Scotia' Mark. Cuz really.. he's awesome, he made me cry tonight though lol.
He was all like "How can you be so happy, when you're leaving me? Nah, I'm kidding, I'm so happy that you got yourself a real job so you can have a normal life." Then he gave me a hug and told me Good Luck.
He's such a sweet man, and the only one I'm gonna miss here.

Ugh.. this damn new cell phone has been whining about a low battery since 1:30am yesterday... I want the bitch to die completely before I charge it, BUT IT WON'T DIE!! It just keeps beeping at me.

Candace my dear... I miss you!!!
I left you a msg on that devil website you call Facebook haha. I still hate it so much!! I'm pretty sure it's the lamest thing I've ever come across in my whole life. And I've come across some laaame shit! Haha

I'm so bored and I have this damn song in my head and it won't go away... *grrr* It's kinda sad, but I'm gonna sing it to you anyway, cuz it's been forever since I sang to you. :p
*clears throat*

I hope you know, I hope you know,
That this has nothing to do with you.
It's personal, Myself and I,
We've got some straightenin' out to do.
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket,
But I've got to get a move on with my life.
It's time to be a big girl now,
And big girls don't cry.

Like the little school mate in the school yard.
We'll play jacks and UNO cards.
I'll be your best friend and you'll be mine,Valentine,
Yes you can hold my hand if u want to,
Cause I want to hold yours too.
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds.
But it's time for me to go home,
It's getting late, dark outside.
I need to be with myself and center, clarity, peace, serenity -[music.note]-

There's also another song that's stuck in my little head.. but I don't think you'd like that one to much.. haha it's 50 Cent, and he tends to get a little crude. Haha but that's why I love him. No worries though, I won't subject you to that [just yet]

Oh, and I'm still waiting for my letter Missy.. You better write back, after I sent you those super fun envelopes :p

! God damn you phone! Why won't you die? !

Au Revoir
-Ash

- You make a mess of me -

Thanks for the memories, even though they weren't so great

MY LAST NIGHT!!

One night and one more time,
Thanks for the memories even though they weren't so great.
"He tastes like you only sweeter"
One night, yeah, and one more time,
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories
"He, he tastes like you only sweeter" -[music.note]-

Buh-Bye nights, buh-bye F.E, Cheap Ass owners, Room 121, and buh-bye supreme boredom! *eeee* So excited!

I'm not gonna lie, not all memories from this place have been bad.. there have been some doozies!
(*) The hot drunk hockey boys
(*) Room 121
(*) Some of the HAWTEST late night convos ever
(*) Great visitors -etc.-

I think I'm gonna miss the familiarity of this place.. I mean, I've spent more then a year of my life here. But that's all I'm gonna miss, I'm so glad that I'll no longer have to deal with the morons that work here. Not to mention, I'm sure as hell not gonna miss the staying up all night, and sleeping my day away.

Blah, not much to write tonight, considering I'm so excited about getting out of this hell hole.. it's been another boring night. It's always a dull moment at the Comfort Inn.

"It's impossible to stay a virgin until you're married... you gotta test drive the car before you buy it" - Bam Margera [Viva La Bam]

5 days off for me! Then I start the new job on Monday 28th

..Stay Tuned, for the next entry of 'Confessions' from a whole new perspective :)

Byes
-Ash

- I dont mind where you come from as long as you come to me -

Seasons change, but people don't

Two, count em 2 more shifts!!
Then I'm outta here *woo, woo*

I'm so excited :)

Last day at Comfort Inn: Tuesday May 22
First day of the new job: Monday May 28
-> 5 big days off <-

I just got into it with that little freak from Ottawa.. he was all pissed off cuz he's in the area for the weekend, and I didn't want to see his ass.
Then he started going on about how "I don't appreciate all the things that he's done for me" I was like WHAT?! WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?!

I swear some people are on crack...
..:Note; Ya'll been hittin' the pipe a little to hard you're brain will thank you if you lay off a little!:..

Mina-Bo-Bina! I'm gonna miss you!
Be safe, and don't get trampled by a camel.

Blah, perhaps I'll write more later..

Ciao
-Ash

- We might've said goodbyes just a little soon -

"I'm a gangsta, and I'm proud of it"

I am the dreamer and you are the dream..

Happy May 24 Boys 'n' Gurls...
-to bad I'm stuck working :s

Another night of workie... *boo* but the count down is still on! 5 more shifts till it's buh-bye Comfort Inn! That's right, as of May 25 I will no longer be an employee of F.E. And the way things are going, it looks like I may never have to venture to this lovely little town again.
I have a feeling though, that this last week is going to be the longest week in history. It's already started tonight, with a call from the owner whining about money, and a call from a whacked out trucker thinking this was the god damn bridge :s

**Grr, I hate when people cook popcorn in the lobby!**

I had the cutest lady come in though.. well, she was cute until she started telling me about her married life, and how she wanted a room with 2 beds because her husband and herself are at the stage where they sleep in their own beds. To much info dear! Then she started telling me about her cell phone, and how it 'snores' haha.. I wish my phone would snore!

Yesterday, I got another call for a job interview.. haha at first I told him that I wasn't interested cuz I'd already got a job.. but he practically BEGGED me to come in haha. He was all like, "You should come in anyway... who knows we could give you more money" So, I have an interview on Tuesday.. for another place in the Falls.. :)

Also; The Phantom of the Opera was AMAZING! It was sooo good! *heart* Definitely worth the money, and EVERYONE should see it!
-[I felt so bad for the Phantom.. I wanted to take him home]-

Lates
-Ash [5]

- The best way to make it through with hearts and wrists intact, Is to realize two out of three ain't bad -

It's on like Donkey Kong!

The count-down that is... TILL THE DAY I'M OUTTA HERE!!

As of 1:30pm yesterday afternoon I'm putting in my 2 weeks! Cuz this little girl HAS GOT HERSELF A NEW JOB! *woo woo*

Pretty much the whole time I've been working here, I've been dreaming of the day when I could say "Hey yo, eff you!" and now that that day has finally come... I have NO IDEA what I'm going to say to the GM when she comes in this morning. I've never been very good at starting a conversation with "By the way.. I'm pretty much gonna be screwing you big time"

When you look at the situation logically... how many times have they screwed me over, to many to even count really.. so I don't know why this is bothering me so much. It definitely would have been a hell of a lot easier [I think] if I was still under the "ownership" of Mr. Oaks.. cuz really, just the thought of being able to tell him to fuck himself with something long and sharp makes me excited in the pants. But sadly, that's not the case.. even though the new owners are quickly getting up there in that place I like to call "in need of getting effed with a blunt object".

I think I'm most worried about screwing the GM.. cuz really, she is sweet, [even though all she does is complain to me about her married life] she doesn't deserve to be left with nothing. And since everyone else that works at this establishment are fucktards.. haha I feel bad leaving her with no one competent. But then again, it's not my problem.

I'm ready to move on, to something during the day [so I can sleep like normal people sleep.. at NIGHT] and that pays more. Cuz it's all about the benjamins baby! *Maaad cheddar* haha

So, it looks like I'm gonna be spending the remainder of my shift pondering about what to say, and how to say it.

But ooo, on a more fun note GREAT TIME LAST NIGHT LADIES! Nothing beats Mic & Angelo's yummy food complete with a hot waiter who rested his balls on our table.. HAHA I'd tap that ;) Daaaamn, he had the whole bald head goin' on and he was fiiine! I wanted to eat HIM for dinner.
Even more fun was my convo with Benny.. about the waiter's balls on our table.. haha. Ben my dear, never change.. cuz really, you're awesome :p

**Phaaantom of the O-per-a** TODAY in the T.Dot!!

P.S. I got a new celly! It's tres awesome... however, I feel really bad that I abandoned my old phone.. it's been with me forever :( it still has my first ever TxT message from a certain Sean boy. *heart*
*Don't worry little phone, I shall keep you for always*
-New Celly, Same Number-

Mwah
-Ash

Love hurts... but sometimes it's a good hurt,
And it feels like I'm alive.
Love sings, when it transcends the bad things.
Have a heart and try me, 'cause without love I won't survive.

A.W.G indeed... Gawd!

**Job Interview TODAY! Wish Me Luck**

HAHAHA what the hell did I ever do to emit such 'slut vibes' ? I'm a good girl! Yet people all seem to want me for one thing... S.E.X. Haha, I just got asked by someone who shall remain nameless *cough -nicholas- cough* if I would make a movie with him.. He was all telling me about his new house and such, then randomly out of no where he was all like "my room is awesome, we could make a pretty good movie in here" Um, sorry darlin.. I've never pictured myself as the movie star.. let alone porn star. :p

There's pretty much only one boy I'd ever even consider doing something like that with, and I hate to break it to ya, but it's not you... he knows who he is...

Other then that little 'adventure' it was another boring night... so I figured what the hell... Here's some random useless info about the one and only Ash :]

Name: Miss Ashley
Sex: In the words of Austin Powers "YES PLEASE!" haha Imma Gurl
Birth date: November 16
Location: Ontario, Canada
Height: 5'0 [Shorty^^]
Eye color: Hazel, but they change to match what I wear
Hair color: Brown
What does your name mean: Uh, something lame.. I think about an 'Ash Tree' or something
High school graduation year: WoW, can't remember 04?
Favorite relatives: Pfft eff relatives!
Summer memory: The good times @ JBTF before it turned gay..
Favorite TV shows: Prison Break, Family Guy, The Hour, Trailer Park Boys etc.
What's on your mousepad: Nothing, just boring black
In the car- ac or windows: Ooo, A-C baby [with a sunroof] :)
Do you believe in yourself: If you don't who's gonna do it for you?
Favorite game: Cranium [looove the clay! I kick ass with the clay!] & Grand Theft Auto.. it's all about killing Hookers!
Favorite drink: Iced Tea & Margies
Favorite food: Chicken Fingas
Favorite colors: Pink, Black, Blue
Favorite cigarettes: Smoking is a dirrrty habit!
Favorite sounds: Nails on a chalk board? :s No, um, the ocean
Favorite smell: The air just before it rains, yummy boys
Worst feeling in the World: Knowing I'm gonna get a needle, Being so far away from you
Best feeling in the World: Happiness, Talking to you, seeing you smile
Favorite thing to do on a weekend: It's been so long since I've had a weekend off.. but whatever I feel like doing at the time.
Favorite soundtrack: Grease, Dirty Dancing, Oliver! [haha]
Where do you see yourself in 10 years: 10 years older, with lotsa money and my boy
First thought in the morning: I want to go back to sleep
Do you get motion sickness: Nope
Rollercoasters- deadly or exciting: EXCITING!
How many rings before you answer the phone: Depends on how far away from it I am
Future son/daughter names: I wanna name all my kids after Transformers! Haha *heart*
Are you a good friend: I'm the bestest! No one better say other wise!
Chocolate or Vanilla cake: Both, depending on my mood..
What do you drive: A sexxy little car.. black Chevy Optra
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: Sometimes
Thunderstorms cool or scary: Amazing
If you could meet one person in the World, who would it be: Famous-Strombo, Other-S.D.V ;)
What is your zodiac sign: Scorpio *sting*
What do you wear to bed: Pjs [just the top] ... or birthday suit [haha]
Do you eat stems of broccoli: I don't eat broccoli period
If you could have any occupation when you get older, what would it be: Professional Money Receiver.. haha I dunno
If you could dye your hair one color, what would it be: None.. I like brown
If you could have a tattoo, what and where would it be: M.F.C. somewhere that could be hidden
Favorite brand of gum: Strawberry-Kiwi Splash
What is your favorite quote: "If love is a labour I'll slave 'till the end, I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand"
Have you ever been in love: Love is for suckas
What's on your walls in your room: Paint?
Is the glass half-empty or half-full: Half full, until I drink it
Pick a song that describes yourself or that you can relate to: The new Fergie song -Big Girls Don't Cry-
Which do you prefer- Cool Ranch or Nacho Cheese Doritos: Both are good, but Cool Ranch leaves you with nassty breath :s
Favorite flavor Snapple: Do we even have that in Canada?
Coke or Pepsi: Both are yum, I'd take Sprite over both
Which kind of milk is your favorite: What are my choices? White, Chocolate, or Sour? Chocolate
If you were to kill someone, which method would you use?: So many choices! This is a hard one for me. Definately CHAINSAW Leatherface style!!
Are you a righty, lefty, or ambidextrous: Riiiighty!
Do you type with your fingers on the right keys: Pfft, no.. my fingers are all over the place
When you meet a person of the opposite sex, you notice their: Smile, and eyes
If you could be one gardening tool, which one would it be: A HOE hahaha
What kind of shoe would you be if you had an option: A cute pair of sandles
What's under your bed: Junk, and a few bodies
What's the best number in the World: 69...... HA no 47
What is your dream car: MUSTANG ... Ashwee wants a sexy 'stang!
Who is your biggest crush right now: Hehe... My soccer boy *Mwah* You're gorgeous!
Nickname: So many- Shorty, Ash-I-Ma-Lee, Boobala, Muffin, Cutie, Ash-G, G-Unit etc.
Murtle the TurtleSchool: ?? What the FUCK ??
Bacon Bits Or croutons: Bacon Bits
Favorite Salad Dressing: Don't like salad
Do you Drink: On occassion.. Mmmm Margaritas!
What type of Shampoo/Conditioner: Right now I have Herbal Essance
Have you ever been skinny dipping: Nope
Do you make fun of people: Yuppers, yuh fatty! Haha
Have you ever been convicted of a crime: I'm to cute to convict
Best friends online/offline: All my friends are best friends *Huggs*
One pillow or two: 2
Pets: Tiger, and some fish
Favorite Movies: Naming them all would take forever! Anything horror, + Love Actually
Favorite type of music: I'll listen to anything once, as long as there's no pick-up truck, no dead dog and no run away wife
Hobbies: Shopping, Drawing, Cooking, Reading, [SEX] haha
Word or Phrase you overuse: "Eff you"
Toothpaste: Aquafresh.. or anything but Crest.. ewwww I hate that shit!
Piercing or tattoos: Just my ears have holes
Do you get along with your parents: Sometimes..
Favorite beer: I can't drink beer, it makes me sick.. but I do like the idea of green beer :]
Favorite song at the moment: 4 in the morning - Gwen Stefani
Favorite subject in school: Art
Least favorite subject in school: Math
Most humiliating moment: Hmm, this is an inside thing [sort of] but lets go with the time I had to check the PRIEST out of room 121...
Craziest or Silliest Person You Know: Marina... GOD I'll never tire of your stories!
Favorite Holiday: My Birthday!

Haha I hope ya'll learned something about Lil' Me :]

Cheers
-Ash

- You've already won me over in spite of me, and don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet -

!! Happy Mum's Day !!

To my Mum, and all the Mums!!

You showed me; when I was young just how to grow,
You showed me; everything that I should know,
You showed me; just how to walk without your hands.
You showed me how to love, You showed me how to care,
And you showed me that you would always be there.
I wanna thank you for that time and I'm proud to say you're mine. [music.note]

[My throat hurts today :( I want it to be better!] T minus 12 Days till Tonsil Doc.

Once again, it has been another boring Saturday at work.. I resorted to watching the end of the Sabers/Sens game..... YEAH I was that bored! Haha. Stupid Buffalo, you went into 2 over times and you still couldn't beat Ottawa.. which PROVES CANADA IS BEST! Haha. Then is was some good ol' SNL action. "Now kids, if you're experiencing ear pain.. it's probably just spiders!"

Question;
Aren't Native people exempt from paying PST [or GST?] on everything? Cause I had this guy come in the other day with his Native tax card thingie.. so I took the PST off his room charge. Then I got a note bitching about how "we don't do that, cause they only get no tax on things they can take with them". First of all.. you can reclaim the taxes at the border on anything that's not entertainment/food related. They told us that when I worked in the Falls.. [we actually have TAX Refund envelopes here.. and it says "Free Instant Tax Refund; on accommodations and most goods purchased over $50. Purchases NOT eligible include: alcohol, tobacco, food, entertainment, admission fees, tickets, parking, licenses, gas and oil"] ..last time I checked a hotel was an accommodation no?
And I'm pretty sure they give Native people that card so they don't have to pay tax on anything. Do they not? Other wise, what the hell is the point of the card??

I swear, these new owners are getting cheaper by the day. Aww boo hoo you're out 4$ cuz I didn't charge that man PST.

P.S. Candace, if I could come visit you, I so would!! [Well, only if I could kidnap one of your mice and rub poison ivy all over someone.]

Pip, pip cheerio!
-Ash

- I could be the one you want to grow older with, baby I'll give you all that I got -

Hold on tight, Wait for tomorrow

I'm reeeeally hoping that Confessions will soon be upgraded!
-From Boonie Sleaze, to Falls Swank :]

This little girl needs swank... I can't deal with the scary drunkin' fools, or the staying up all night anymore. It makes me cranky.

I think my interview today went tres tres fantastique!
- I'll be making more then I do here, I'll have some variation in my schedule and in 3 months I'll get full benefits *woo*

And there's still my interview on Monday

Still *Wish me Luck* though.. haha I'm not quite outta the Boonies yet.. :s

I so didn't want to come into work tonight, I can't say I was looking forward to another night of sitting here doing nothing. I'm so ready to fall asleep... I've been up since like 3am [tossed and turned will 7 when I finally got to mad, and got up.] I had a nap before work for about an hour, but I think that made me more tired.. *whines*

I hate not having anything interesting to write about...this is supposed to be More Fun Then A Barrel Of Monkeys... not Boring As All Hell

Today - Sleep forever
Sunday - HAPPY MUM'S DAY!!
Monday - Interview @ 2pm at The Oaks
Tuesday - Last night of work.. 2 nights off!
Wednesday - The Phantom of the Opera [music.note] @ 8pm w/ my Mum
Thursday - Mina! We are soo doing something!
Friday - Start my work week all over again :s
*****
Monday May 21st - Mina [like Candis] leaves me for the summer :(
Thursday May 24th - Trip to the Tonsil Doc.

Blah, I just want to sleep for a thousand years [with you]

Lates
-Ash

- Come on baby please cause I'm on my knees, can't get you off my brain -

It's time to be a big girl now, & big girls don't cry..

I have a job interview today!! At the Embassy Suites!! Tres Pretty Hotel.... not like The [un]Comfort Inn. *Wish me Luck!* <- I'm gonna need it.
Also, I have another interview on Monday.. For the Oaks Overlooking the Falls *Wish me Luck x2* - No More Nights!! *crosses fingas*
and Wednesday = PHANTOM OF THE OPERA!! <- Taking my mommy for Mum's Day :]

**Congrats to Rob - On the WIN in that cuute little Sprint Car on Sunday!! I so wanted to come watch, but I had to work :(
Not congrats however to Al, Doug, and Mark.. due to the fact that you RAN Rob's dad over with a quad! *Idiots* Haha, no more beer in the garage for you! :p

Sean;
Ever since I opened my big stupid mouth.. I've been an effing mess. Seriously, please call me if you read this. You want me to be happy, you're the only one that makes me happy.. I've thought about it a lot, and I've decided that this is one thing that I'm not gonna be able to do for you. I can't give up on you for someone else, I know you say you're never there when I need you.. but you are. I could be having the worst day and you always know how to make it better. So please, just forget I said anything about it... cuz this is the one and only time I wish I hadn't been honest with you about something.
So yeah, call me kk, cuz it's been 2 days[feels like forever]... and I haven't been able to stop crying...

*Still Sad*
-Ash

When the tears come streaming down your face,
When you lose something you can't replace,
When you love someone, but it goes to waste,
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home,
And ignite your bones,
And I will try to fix you.
High up above or down below,
When you're too in love to let it go,
If you never try you'll never know,
Just what you're worth

between each smile there's a tear in your eye

Today pretty much sucked.....

I really should learn to keep my mouth shut. Considering I can always tell you anything, if something is that hard for me to say, then I shouldn't say it.

Baby Boy, I want you and only you... end of discussion. You're the only one that makes me happy

Honesty isn't always the best policy...

Also, on top of this dumb thing that I did... on my way to work [while balling my eyes out] my glasses broke... I'm batting a thousand today :s

*Feels oh so sad*
-Ash

- If love is a labor I'll slave till the end, I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand -

*Ching, Ching* Isn't she lucky...

I just got a $20 tip from creepy Mr. Jones for doing absolutely nothing.

-For those who don't know who Mr. Jones is... he's the one that is always here with different girls, and he always wants "a biig bed" for ... his "goings on"

I guess it pays to be soo damn cute ^^
He told me that I'm always so nice, the nicest girl here and considering I work the grave yard shift that's awesome. He told me how he liked how I was always smiling.. and handed me a 20.

He probably just wants to get into my pants... and that's how he's gonna earn my trust? haha :s

**Ahh, one more night of work... then I want to sleep FOREVER!**

Marina, you don't even read my blogs anymore... but we should so go to T.Dot and get some street meat [and maybe some Ben & Jerry's]

Toodles
-Ash

- I'm just a girl, with a crush on you -

Feeling like this could only mean I'm sinking..

Aww yay! It's fun to get comments from camp :]
Haha, I'm sorry I changed things on you Candace.. but I was so bored, and I thought this was pretty! Very star.avec.leaf! No?

I think it's awesome that I haven't even mailed the first letter that I wrote you, and already I feel the need to write you another one haha. So look forward to not one but two masterpieces a la Ash in the mail. Hopefully I shall mail them tomorrow.. I just need to locate some stamps :]
P.S. I'm sorry about the mice.... perhaps you can catch one, and make friends with it. Dress him in little mouse attire or something.

Ash's Review on Spiderman 3
LAME with a capital L!! Spiderman should NEVER be emo!! The beginning was good, but it all went down hill with the introduction of EMO Spidey complete with eye liner, and dancing :s And the end was like one giant episode of Dr. Phil with the crying and such.
I pretty much wanted to kill myself through out the entire movie.. it was 2 hours to long.
Stan Lee actually had a speaking part which is fun, cuz really he's got to be like 9000 years old now, and he's so adorable!

But Mr. Lee, you and Marvel Comics should stick to making movies in pairs, leave out the trilogy idea... the third one always seems to be SHIT! I mean, look what happened with X-Men.. the first two were amazing! As for the third one, I'm pretty sure a baby could puke something better then that..

*Just sayin' is all.. I still love you* :]


Also:..
~HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUUUULIA~ [yesterday]

addski - 4:30am
There has been this creepy cab driver outside for like 2 hours now, waiting for the train crew..
I have no idea why, cuz they haven't even gotten their wake up call yet... but he is so scary and I want him to leave!
He came in to ask if they were here, and he was missing his front teeth, and the others were all chipped and black :s *cries* I never wanna see that again!

Au Revoir
-Ash

- I was waiting, for the day you'd come around.. -

You like.... I like....

I was soo bored at work, so I thought I'd do some changing.

WELCOME TO THE NEWLY REVAMPED BLOG A LA ASH

C'mon in, take a look around, stay a while :) and all that jazz

**Also, since I missed the 3rd... I have now known you for ONE YEAR + FOUR MONTHS.. what's the hold up my dear??**

Byes
-Ash

- I look around me, and I want you to be there, cuz I miss the things that we shared -