A lil bit of rant ... a lil bit of sap

We'll get the "rant" outta the way first.. haha

I really need to get out of this place, I think I'm on the edge of a 'Freak-Out'. First.. I'm conforming to your stupid "wear a white shirt with black pants" garbage. But know this, The main reason I don't like to wear white, is because I don't like to get dirty. White seems to attract dirt.. and this place is full of dirt. If you think that I'm gonna be changing juice in the juice machine while wearing white.. HAHAHA that's hilarious. Also, fear the day that you come in [late as usual] and something has gotten me dirty.. cuz I won't be a happy little girl, and I will blame you!

Second.. remember my little F.E fighting friends in the parking lot. Well, the guy that called the front desk to complain about them, I now want him dead. That bastard said he called up here, 4 times.. he called twice. He also said that I didn't do anything about it. Uhh, no no buddy.. you shut your dumb ass mouth right now. The first time you called whining, I went out and told them they had to go inside and be quiet, or leave.. or I was going to have to call the police. The second time you called.. they were getting in their cars to leave.. so how else would you have liked me to handle that situation? Call the police anyway? And say what? .."There's a bunch of people in the parking lot that are in the process of leaving, quick come arrest them, so Mr. 131 will shut the fuck up" I'll keep that in mind for the next time I get a giant dick like you staying in one of my rooms. M'kay pumpkin :-) *douche bag*

And now for the "little bit of sap"..
bare with me, cuz Sean.. you are more then worth 'sap'

- Do you remember when we first met, I sure do.. -

I can now officially say, that I have known the greatest boy in the world for ONE YEAR. Wow, I wouldn't trade a minute of this past year for anything.. even though I still haven't gotten the one thing that I truly want.

People might call me crazzy, but I still remember the very first thing you said to me [even though it was at like 4am, over MySpace, which is the devil haha] I still have the first text message you ever sent me, and it still makes me laugh every time I read it.

I remember being so excited to get home from work, when I worked at Sitel.. just cuz it meant that I got to stay up until all hours of the night talking to you, and you telling me that every time you got a phone call for a credit card membership, you would think of me.

I remember our first phone conversation.. and how we were both so nervous, but you were so cute sweetie hehe. And of course I remember every conversation after that.. talking to you is always my most favourite part of the day.

I remember missing you like crazy when you left me to go to Germany for the FIFA WORLD CUP, and wishing everyday that you would come home safe, and of course, you did.

There are so many things that I could write, so many things I wanna write.. but this would go on forever. I wouldn't trade a minute of it Sean, not for anything in the world. You were always, and will always be the best part of my day and I'll continue to tell you that whenever I can. You have been so amazing, and it's so hard to think of a life without you.. that's not a life that I want. I'm greatful for everyday, and every memory that we've shared.

- xoxoxoxox -

Byes
-Ash

- Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you, why can't I speak whenever I talk about you.. -